I am still struggling a bit with the removal of a request from my Prayer Journal. It wasn't easy to draw the line through that request. I really had my heart set on it. In all selfishness, I wanted it dearly.
It's very pleasant to have the things that please us:
Cute shoes and fashionable outfits.
A nice home. I still dream of a beautiful home in the country with a wrap-around porch where I can sip on sweet-tea and watch my precious children play.
New vehicles. Who doesn't want the newest, the safest and the one with the best and most advanced technology?
The latest gadgets, phones and computers.
However, the more I realize that I'm not yet home... the easier it is to put aside that request and the desires for material things. Do I still want? Yes. I'm flesh and He knoweth my frame.
As much effort as we put into it, we can not perfect the human self.
Perhaps it's also because I am in the midst of spring cleaning. With that and with years of this large cleaning task I've realized that - the more possessions I have, the more I have to clean. The more I have, the more they take of my time, energy and thoughts.
If we measure ourselves by possessions and how we are viewed based on those possessions - we are entirely missing the point of the Christian life and the Christian walk.
When we are able to be completed by the One who gave us breath and not by material things... it will be an easier task to put aside the wants and desires. It will be easier to thank Him for meeting the needs and feel overwhelmingly blessed by all the extra blessings.
The evening after I had put aside that request and allowed myself to focus on truly important things, a feeling of gratitude flooded my being. I have never before felt so incredibly blessed by what I have been given in my life.
Update: In March of 2014 - God granted that request which I had put aside. In everything, He had His own plan and purpose. He worked on my heart and I was even more grateful when He filled a desire that had turned into a need. My Type A personality wants to plan years ahead and know when needs will be met. I knew a need was coming - but so did He. I needed to learn to let Him take care of that need when them time actually arrived.
Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? - Matthew 6:26