The amazing love, grace and understanding of God have come my way in so many forms over the past few months. No matter the outcome on physical and health issues I suffered the past year, He was with me. Giving me a better perspective on those are going through medical trials.
The overwhelming thorn in my flesh is the temptation to be snarky, sarcastic and cynical. Until being able to move beyond the health issues, I truly had no desire to allow Him to create in me a clean heart. My quick quips are how I dealt with hateful or tyrannical people. Whether their attempts have been to hurt or control -- my resort has been a disingenuous remark. I struggle with it moment by moment.
There have been many giants in my life recently. The past year includes health issues, business plans and financial obstacles -- to name just a few. In each, I have instinctively hid my face from them for the first few days. My fear can prove paralyzing when I allow it to grab hold with a very firm hand. When I chose to barely face the giants and timidly raise my head, with God's hand I made it through. I can't imagine what He will do when I bravely stare the giants in the face and proceed forward.
The past few months I have been presented with message after message which seem to be God designed for my ears and heart. Repeatedly I have heard how to allow God to take us through trials, temptations -- now to face these giants with courage. No matter how ill equipped I have felt I am for the battle, God has known it was nearing. He has provided me with all that I need.