I am the type that likes to plan. I set goals. I like to see my progress. I need calendars and need to know that things are being taken care of. My planning can get in the way of enjoying the trip.
As a child, I would spend a lot of time meticulously setting up my dolls, their accessories, etc... I spent so much time and energy making everything perfect in my eyes that by the time it was done, I was too tired to actually play.
Thankfully, my worries were little when I was a child. I had loving parents who provided for me and created a home as well as a memorable childhood. I could lay my head down at night and truly relax as I drifted to sleep. I knew there would be food in the morning and fresh clothes to wear.
If I sit quietly and concentrate - I can actually remember how that felt. Peering back, there was a noticeable lack of stress. As the years went by, the worries began to creep in. Fears of failure or not being and having enough too hold. They were what I thought of as I fell asleep. Even now, that is most often how I go to bed at night. Worrying about the future.
Each night before we go to sleep, my husband and I check on the children one last time. Their sweet little faces are so relaxed and innocent. The weight of the world isn't on their shoulders. They instinctively know that their mother and father will take care of them.
If only we could be like that. Relaxing in the faith and knowledge that our heavenly Father will take care of our needs.
A favorite passage of mine in reminding me that when we are doing as we should... our needs will be met.
what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on.
The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment.
Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?
And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit?
If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least, why take ye thought for the rest?
Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and tomorrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?
And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.
For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things.
But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you."
Luke 12: 24 - 31